So again here we go. Once again I have allowed someone in. A person with intentions for only themselves. You show yourself as this nice person, but inside hmm. Who knows? Well I've been slow, but now I know. I know that you talk a good one. You set so many goals and, but then you sit back and watch opportunities slip away. Bleh, burp, fart, I did my part.

Bored, my head hurts.
Tired, my feet hurt.
Sad, my heart hurts.
Angry, my fist hurt.
Hurt hurts, hmm.
Pass along,
Wait it out.
Just wanna shout.

What happened?

Sigh, Ho hum is how I feel. Or do I feel at all? Things just went flat. And somber is my mood. I'm so confused. A lil angry at times. Then sorrow. Was sorry for too long. Now acceptance.

Things started out on a high note. Now the music is lost. Where is that melody that was so sweet? Before my clumsy finger hit the wrong key. And then once again I pitch the wrong note. What's wrong with me? I thought I knew this song. It plays beautifully in my mind. But my ears hears the all to awful tune.

Reality sets in. I guess some songs are not meant to be played. Or is it just the wrong song at the wrong time? No one wants to hear a 50cent jam at a funeral.
Sigh...

Modification

The change in me will take time to complete. Each day I will keep my goals in mind. Keep my motivation strong. Block out all the things that try to hold me back. Disentangle myself from elements that are holding me back.

Jumping over hurdles are not always easy. Although once you've gotten over the first manacle, the fear of what may follow will fade away. Fear overcome transforms into confidence. Confidence transitions into ambition.
I will be a driven force, breaking thru any wall built as a hindrance. I will reach my mark, without looking back. Moving forward towards new experiences. Refining the woman who is me.

I think u should know

Men can really make you sick.  Let me rephrase that, Dogs make me sick.  Always on the hunt,  tails wagging, drooling with the tongue out the mouth.  So unattractive. Can I as a woman be respectfully appreciated for my beauty?  Gosh I wanna puke.  Do you know what an appropriate compliment is?  Well I will tell you what it is not. "Damn you have some nice lips".  Wrong, this lets me know intanlty that all you are thinking about is what those lips can do to you.  Lets try saying hello first.  Followed by, "that sure is a nice scarf your wearing".   Maybe that"s the icebreaker you need.  Because then I will tell you it's my favorite color.  Now there is a beginning of a conversation.  Show me your interents lies more than on sexual satisfaction.

Please do not stare me down. Especailly while your girlfriend or who ever she is to you, lay sleeping peacefully on your shoulder.  Now I am so not flattered. Instead, I am so uncomfortable that I want to disappear into the train seat.  You know what?  I have a back up plan, because I am too shy to tell you to get the hell out of my face.  I will get lost in the book I always have handy in my purse.  Guess what Dog?  If your paying attention you have just learned another interesting fact about me.  Besides my favorite color blue scarf, you now know I like to read.  Ding Ding Ding.  We're on a role.

So before I ramble on, here is my point.  Dogs, get a muzzle.  Please I beg you.  You know the saying.  Dogs are a mans best friend.  Maybe because you act like a dog,that is the reason you are always with the guys and not in a functional relationship. Sniffing around tramps.   Not every poodle wants her butt sniffed.  Gosh. I'm that poodle.  Don't sniff my butt until you have looked me in the eyes, and barked me a propper greeting. Thank you and goodnight.

Just in general

Women: Such emotional creatures. If they're not too angry, then they're too sad, too happy, too mean. Always too something. God made us the way we are and we should embrace ourselves. Be happy with what we have. Instead we're looking over our shoulder at the next woman, and not seeing at who we are inside.

Shut out the noise around you, stop scoping the scene around you. Rolling your eyes. No more "Who she think she is?" Ask yourself "Who am I?" "What do I need?" "What do I want?" "How can I achieve my goals?" Define yourself ladies and no one else will.